Karma... don't let me down now

I believe that I am a good person. At least I try to be.
Sure, I lie and do 'bad' things, but I try to be good.
I return things to their owner or somewhere the person who lost it can get it, because I hope that someone will do that for me too.
Oh, how I hope that right now...

I went to IKEA today and lost my IPhone. I don't know where, I don't know when. I have an idea, but I'm not sure.
I'll call tomorrow and I pray that somebody returned it.

I need this IPhone. Not because I use it as Phone or because it has my music, but because I have plot bunnies on there and notes, that are very important to me. I can't bear to lose them...

Please, please give me back my IPhone (and that is such a selfish wish considering all the suffering other people have to go through)
but my self-esteem is at a minimum, I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore, The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends, I'm feeling so alone, I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do, I eat way too much to try and make myself feel better, I feel like no one cares about me andI just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.


I need this phone. Bad. 
Please... please, give me this phone. It needs to be repaired, I want to read my notes and listen to my music.


I need it.

Redheads and Jaybirds

"Roy Harper. Stage three clinger."
"Come on, Jaybird."

Wonderful, those two. Roy calling Jason 'Jaybird' and even though Jason threatened him, he just continues :3

I like Red Hood and The Outlaws. It's amazing to see how those three individuals start to get close to each other. Soon, they will call each other 'friends'... ^.^

Even Kory, who is always so high and mighty starts to warm up not only to Jason but also to Roy, which I think is wonderful because I never really could stand her. I know that a lot of people adore her character but I only knew the somehow-annoying Teen Titans Cartoon version. That's not necessarily a bad character but I like the tough one in Red Hood now :)

Many people complain that Kory is portrayed as slut - and really, even in the last comics she was - but the latest issue showed her strong side, even though she had to be rescued by Roy, I thought she was cool and I'm very picky about female characters.
Kory is cool.

And Roy... Oh, Roy... He's funny and makes bad jokes, whispers with Kory behind Jason's back, calls him Jaybird... Wonderful.
I don't know too much about his character, since I never read Green Arrow or anything, but I have a small grasp of his character from Young Justice and videos and stuff. And he was always somehow so serious. Sure, he lost his daughter and his arm, no wonder he's serious. Everyone would be serious.
But even in Young Justice he's always ANGRY.
But in Red Hood, he's kind of a goof and the group needs that. He's kind of the 'reason' why I continue reading, even though I started because of Jason. Because, like in Batman & Robin, it was cool because Damian was serious and Dick was funny, now it isn't anymore because no one makes jokes anymore and they are all so serious! Geez... That's why I'm thankful for Roy's character.
Roy is cool.

And finally Jason. Haaah... where should I start?

Jason... was the reason I started reading Red Hood and the Outlaws. He is one of my favorite characters since I watched Under the Red Hood and I started to research him. I cried at his death and his rebirth, it's one of the saddest stories ever. And now, he starts his own life without wanting to impress Batman anymore. He's finally free.

And in Red Hood, he is this slightly cynical character who has a soft side. Oh, and it's wonderful how he flirts with women and doesn't realize his charm. All the banters with Roy, and his smiles, I relish the new Jason Todd.

Again, I heard people complaining about Scott Lobdell and how he writes Jason, but I have to say, I like it. He's not angry anymore but at peace. He doesn't life in the past anymore and that is alright. There would be no room for him to grow if he still brooded about his past. The way Scott writes him gives him room to grow, to discover new sides of him.

Jason is cool.

And don't get me started about this beautiful art. Kenneth Rocafort has a way of drawing sharp eyes and the compliment especially Jason.

His lightly messy way of outlining is a wonderful addition to the beautiful colors and the way he draws expressions is simply astouning.

I'm so glad he is the artist of Red Hood and the Outlaws.

In conclusion: Red Hood and the Outlaws is fucking amazing and I will never listen to people who tell me otherwise. I respect you opinion but don't shove it in my face, I don't want to hear about it.

Miya out.

"You know life isn't like a Manga?"

But seriously, I know that. I just made a reference because I could feel how the main character feels. I didn't compare the manga to my life - it was the other way around. 

Oh, sure, I'm totally expecting a trial, struggles and eventually a happy end? No!

Come on, I haven't lost touch to reality even though for you it might seem like it. Who in their right mind would say: "Oh, this situation is just like in the manga, surely it will turn out like there, too"
Bullshit.

I know what's real and what's not. But unfortunately, sometimes, reality sucks. So I enjoy myself by stepping into the fictional world for a few hours. Nothing more. That's it. 

Sure, wishing all some characters were real seems weird to you, but I'm not the only one and let's be honest: It would be amazing.

Whatever. I'm out. Not going to talk to you about my love life anymore. Never again. I know it's messed up right now, that's why I wanted you to say 'It'll work out somehow' but NO, all I get to hear is how MESSED UP it is. I KNOW that.

Enjoy not-hearing from me anymore.

Happy and Sad comes together

I feel like I can't talk about my obsessions at all.
Oh what would I do for a friend who was as into Comics as me.
I could gush about Red Hood and the Outlaws, I could rant about Batman & Robin.... It'd be great.

Nohow, I need to write. And I need to finish a project. Argh, I feel torn but it actually isn't that complicated. Finish the project - start writing but I just don't feel like it.

Don't feel like anything anymore in the past days, but that's not important.

Important is that I can't get to the comics I want. Me and them are separated by an ocean. Unfortunately. BUT I've started reading Red Robin and it's simply amazing and I just want all of them like right now.
But I also want Red Hood and the Outlaws.
And Teen Titans.
And Nightwing.
AND Impulse.
And The Flash comics.
Oh, and the old Batman and Robin comics.

Yeah, I don't have that much money.


I guess I'll post some fics here, not that anyone is going to read them anyways, I just feel like it.

Oh, and I should stop lying all the time. I'm NOT 'good' and I'm most definitely not 'fine'.
Most of the time anyways.

I want to start drawing comics but it's so much harder than Mangas... Maybe somedays I can get into the whole Comic-scene. As an artist or a writer. Both would be awesome. Then I could manipulate my favorite characters the way I want it. Huhuhuhu... C:

Whatever, that's about it. I'm sure a rant about Jason and Roy and whatever is coming up later. But... Later. Now I'm too hungry to do anything but eat.

I feel like Wally....

I like that.

-Miya

Life is happening. All. The. Time.

Everywhere I go, life is happening around me. I get into fights with my friends, am in a bad mood... Only New Year kind of actually felt like vacation.
I could go on and on about this one specific friend who pushed me away for no good reason (glad it happened now and not in a time of need), this other friend that cancels our plans all the time and the one that gets mad at me for not having time.
I could rant about school and how it decided to kill me.
I could bitch about my father (though that's the problem I'm least concerned about) but in the end it all comes back to me and I'm really tired of dealing with drama all the time so I decided to only hang with people that don't cause drama. And that's only boys. Sadly.

Anyways, bought Red Robin #1 (finally) and loved it. Cried a little bit on the inside for poor Timmy but otherwise it's great. I love the drawings, I adore the dialogue and I detest Ra's with a passion that was foreign to me until now.
Hated him since Under The Red Hood, which was the first time I heard about him, and now I despise him even more.

Slowly, it all falls together and I understand things now. In Batman Beyond. I watched it the first time when I was little on tv and, naturally, was completely lost. Until recently, I liked Terry as Batman better, now, I'd like to punch myself in the face for ever thinking that.
Now, I watched some scenes again and when Talia appeared I was like 'aaaaah! I know who that is! Wait! That's right, this guy is Bruce, omg! Where's Damian?! Terry is his son??!'
(Well, I guess that was before they decided to bring Damian into the picture, obviously)

I like it when things make sense, which is really rare for the Batman Universe, if you'd ask me...

Hah, feels good to finally gush about all of this, since I have no one to talk about this otherwise.
(I felt like I was going insane -.-)

... Moving on... I like Wally more and more and I'd wish they'd make a Young Justice episode all about him and not Fate or whoever. But that is highly unlikely... I looked at the writers of the next episodes and they're all ones who focus on Artemis and Superboy a lot... So probably no Wally. And no Robin either which is equally bad.
I found a nice picture in the depths of the internet, that was funny. Let's see if I can find it again...
But anyways, it said something like
Robin: Flips like Dick
           Trolls like Jason
           Hacks like Tim
           Fights like Damian (or something)
And I really liked that. Because it's true. And it blew my mind.

I guess that was all... At the moment.

DC Reboot 2

Okay... So I waited for the Reboot, I read the ones I was curious about (sans Batman&Robin) and I have to say... It's looking good :)

Though, obviously the Starfire (Teen Titans) fans will HATE Red Hood and the Outlaws. She's been kind of a... slut in the first chapter, but in the second, not at all :)
I was never that into Teen Titans ('cept maybe the new one) and only watched the Cartoon so I can say with pride that I detested that version of Starfire.
In TT Comic version she might've been different, but in the Cartoon she just pissed me off so I really don't care about the changes in her character.

Roy is... weird and I can't say if I like him or not but I absolutely ADORE Jason >.<
In this flashback he's just like 'I'm the boss and I rule!', gets his ass kicked and NOW he's super amazing adorable :3
Or whatever, it's the fangirl speaking in me ;P

Teen Titans started off AMAZING and I'm SO excited for the next one >.< I can't even...

Batman&Robin... I just don't want to read it. In the old ones, there was always that one Character who lifted the mood and was like 'Yay, life C:'
In the old B&R it was Dick and now there are Bruce and Damian who are both like 'Hrrrg... No! I have no emotions... I'm gruff I say. GRUFF!'
So I didn't feel like reading it.
Maybe, when it turns out that Damian is the light, mood lifting character then MAYBE I'll start reading.

But the scars will always be there TT^TT

New Obsession

I should have watched Batman: Under The Red Hood weeks ago! Then the Reboot wouldn't have upset me that much.
Because, well it gave me a new favourite character :3

I mean, Jason just kicks ass, I can't wait for the new series with him (and Roy of course). <3

And it's another redhead. I seem to be drawn to redheads a lot in animated series.
...
And somehow most of them die, get cut or are just minor characters. I mean, I can understand that Gaara is not that important and lately, I even got over Axels death but... the thing with Wally still irks me.

Well, now I can enjoy a comic with two hot redheads :3 Yay!
I'm sooo exited for this.
I can just see Jason and Roy bickering and Starfire trying to calm them down while they do... whatever they want to do.

C:
-Miya